Idea

I think I shall start making mixes of music I like instead on blabbing about heart felt issues.... :)

Favorite Quote by Neil Gaiman

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”


Neil Gaiman

Randomness 1

I wish I didn’t feel, I wish I didn’t think.
I don’t understand why my thoughts are so complicated.
Maybe everyone is the same – I’ll never really know.
Just how they’ll never really know me.
So bored and tired.
What’s the point to all of this?
Am I just depressed again – maybe I’ve always been.
People confuse me, I confuse me.
I just want to be free from myself- from my thoughts.

2.

Annoyed and upset

Rejected and ignored

Fighting the ever increasing gray cloud in my head

Looking for that light within me

It’s very dim today

I fight back the tears and wish it would all go away

It will get better, it always does

Just to wait out this gloominess

The wanting to disappear

How I wish to fly away

To the land with no tears

Stupidity

Why are we women so fucking stupid? When someone treats you like crap and makes you feel horrible about yourself some women stick around, as if being treated like shit was a form of affection. Urgg!!!! I hate seeing my friends being taken down by their inability to just tell someone to fuck off! Or their fear of being "alone". Even I have found myself holding back my life because of some idiot. In most all other species the males are the ones who work hard for the females' attention. They are the once who have to be appealing to the eyes, be the strongest, have the best physical features. While the female is as plain as can be - she doesn't care - she gets to pick. I feel society has turned us women into something horrible. Constanlty worrying about our looks and pleasing our man. This is so fucking frustrating - why? Why can't it be easy?

1.

Random thoughts flow through my mind,
of life, love, friendships, and dreams.
How I hold on to these fantasies.
How they frustrate me!
They make me feel alive, the pain they causes me!
When will I know if my dream will ever be a reality?